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Am i updating!? no, am not.

multiply is "moving" so i gotta update here. i'm really am not in the mood of writing stuff of my what-have-been's 'cause there's a lot of it already.

first, the JUMPacked concert ( to which the concert's background i shared in multiply ). then the EK '09! ( which i was not really happy to blog about. ) and my Christmas Eve SAGA. ( hindi lang twilight ang may saga. i wrote this one on my journal. i actually wrote a blog draft at my devotional notebook! haha! ) i don't know, wala na kong time mashado mag-computer nowadays. i think, i really needed a laptop for blogging and picture editing na talaga. Lord... :D i declare abundant life and overflowing blessings! IN JESUS' NAME!

anyway, just for a little entertainment... found this picture of mine from my churchmate's phone. may kamukha daw akong Magalona. well... kayo na ang humusga. ( funny ng label ko. feeler. HAHA! )

"I've never quit loving you and never will.
Expect love, love, and more love!

And so now I'll start over with you and build you up again..."

THANK YOU, LORD!
This Sunday has been a wonderful day.

I said, UP-Di. --Srsly.. and FTHFLY.

eto bilib na bilib talaga ako...:

‘Question: Sa taong gutom, masarap pati _____ (A hungry person finds what delicious?). Choices: a) panis (spoiled food) b) tutong (burnt rice) c) tinik (fish bones) d) buto (bones).’ I was stumped. I answered tutong (for the rhyme) but I still wonder what the correct answer is to this day.”—Carla Grepo, 24, law student, UP Diliman

eto laughtrip. HAHA! :

“There were noisy UP students talking loudly outside, saying things like, ‘If you don’t know the answer, letter C na lang!’ and ‘Madali lang yan, kami nga nakapasa eh!’ The use of Tagalog was only hard for the Math part. It was insane, solving a Math problem written in Tagalog.”—Margarete Hernandez, 24, architect, UP Diliman

eto pananaw ko during my junior year:

“I exemplify the UP-or-nothing case. I think I was one of the few handful who went out of UP smiling—most of the examinees I saw had their heads down, ready to be hanged. I was so confident I would pass, I never took any exam in any other school. Thank God I passed because I wouldn’t have gone to college if I didn’t.”—Mark Angelo Ching, 21, staff writer, UP Diliman

eto inspiring ( napa -"aww.." me while reading ) : “All I remember is not having enough time to pause and wear my jacket in the cold room at Abelardo (may aircon sa UP!). I was munching on chocolate to keep me up. I “threw darts” when it came to the Math part—I’m so bad at Math already, tinagalog pa—patay (It was in Tagalog)! And then I remember leaving the campus and for the first time really seeing how the trees frame the Academic Oval so beautifully, seeing the sea of people in every building and thinking, ‘Wow, I’m never going to get into UP with all these people taking this test in Diliman alone.”—Maureen Tanedo, 24, communications specialist, UP Diliman

“In the last section of my UPCAT exam, I was happily and steadily shading the little circles with my answers and was certain that I was going to finish the entire exam on time. Then I suddenly realized that I had missed a number in my shading so the rest of my answers after that were probably wrong! I broke out into a cold sweat, retraced my answers and tried to correct everything. I haphazardly answered the remaining questions, right-minus-wrong be damned, and spent the next few months praying.”—Dia Lacaba, 29, marketing manager, UP Diliman

**WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE UPCAT MEMORY? By Bianca Consunji, (AB Journ cum laude’07) Reprinted from The Philippine Daily Inquirer, August 1, 2009.

i wonder if i could have a testimony like these especially the latter...

Lord, could i? :)

deactivated

i don't use facebook anymore. deleted my account. no more level 23 cafe world. no more "pa-astigan" status messages. no more 300++ friends whom i hardly knew. no more jumping off the trap of EXTREME TEMPTATION.

facebook is... USELESS.
( please be reminded that this is MY SITE )

i just couldn't find satisfaction in it at all. i mean with all the applications and level-ups and chatting and I-HAVE-THE-MOST-ASTIG-STATUS posting and I-HAVE-THE-MOST-NUMBER-OF-FRIENDS-COMMENTING "..on my mind". you see, will spend hours ( makes me want to BACKSPACE that word ) even the whole entire day just to do those things... then after it what? i'm not telling you that this is what facebook is doing in everyone's life. it has its own set of benefits though... but not for me.

everyday i pray to God that in whatever i will be doing let it all bring glory to Him, let not one thing ever give the enemy a foothold of me..... not til i sign-in on my facebook. not til i tell the world "what's on my mind(?)". i'm not being self-righteous here... well, yeah it's given, i'm a christian and there is a great conviction. hence, i can easily give up those supposedly "inevitable" stuff. but it really depends on us, how are we gonna handle things, how are we gonna look at it as something beneficial or destructive. as for me, it is very destructive/distract-ive... in whichever way.

i don't know about you...

i just hate it, i hate how i used it for my own glory... i hate how it made me break promises with people... and with God. i hate the anger, the bitterness, and lust.

i don't know if y'all gonna understand me.. i'm sharing these things to help IF at some point someone's experiencing the same dilemma i have had. i'm not looking for praises for what i did giving up the "inevitable". i'm not here to be understood... i'm here to tell you that these things can POSSIBLY happen. that these things can POSSIBLY cross your mind. that these things can POSSIBLY be a major problem. that these things can POSSIBLY be the reason why you have a ruined relationships with your family or friends. that these things can POSSIBLY be the reason why your life stinks, why you feel inferior, why you feel defeated, why you feel unhappy and why YOU ARE STILL NOT SATISFIED.

Matthew 18:8-9
^"8 So if your hand or foot causes you to sin, cut it off and throw it away. It’s better to enter eternal life with only one hand or one foot than to be thrown into eternal fire with both of your hands and feet. ⁹ And if your eye causes you to sin, gouge it out and throw it away. It’s better to enter eternal life with only one eye than to have two eyes and be thrown into the fire of hell."

reminded of this Scripture i told myself: if you cannot decide whether you're gonna remove what is hindering you to what's supposed to be LIFE TO THE FULLEST and continue to live in deception... think of the times you where thinking "what's on your mind" and the decision you just made when you submitted it in a live feed of a hundred viewers....

sunday with darren.

sunday again... why do i get to update on sunday? wisdom, maybe. or it's just that my mind's flowing in this dimension when you suppose to END the week and START a new one. (really, i don't know if Sunday's the start or the end. do i have to problem the problem?)

anyway, let's go random. i'm at school right now. no, not social service or any community kindness. i'm at a HIGHSCHOOL-school.

we're only chasing 'empty'

i told you it's empty.

guess "my past ended last night" thought is missing in action. i can still smell my yesterday's deo from my shirt and it is starting to change its odor.

i'm not being humorous here, dude. just filling this emptiness with honesty. and yea, so there..

i hope this day will be a completion of what should have "ended".

oh... and hey, it's Sunday. get your bump off that seat and make your life a little bit worthy of Somebody's grace.